Thursday, September 15, 2005

Transitions

Today . . . a transition.

Today I finally head home from my parents’ place to get back to my old life. It’s been almost 5 weeks since the beginning of this entire ordeal – from the initial attack, to the constant pain for a few days, to GWU Hospital, to Sacred Heart Hospital, to the surgery, to my parents place and, subsequently, recovery.

Sometimes at points in my life, I have wondered how life will be different a year from now. When I reflect on this entire 5-week experience, what are the things I will remember most? I have already forgotten about some of the pain I went through. In truth, I don’t really remember much about the hospital at all. And the time at my parents’ place, that I thought would drag on forever, has seemed to pass somewhat quickly and painlessly. I guess the scar down my chest will be the constant reminder, but even that will fade with time, as Dad’s has done in the last 4 years.

Wondering where I will be a year from now also reminds me where I was a year ago. On September 15th, 2004, I was on my first “official” date with Ex#5 (I say “official” because we ended up going out two times before the date we had set as a first date). A year ago, just like today, September 15th seemed full of promise and hope for a bright future, good times and many happy days. In many ways, there are a lot of similarities between Ex#5 and my new heart:

Both gave me refreshing outlooks on life when life seemed bleak and unlivable. Both brought me out of a dark time in my life when everything seemed hopeless. Both filled my life with new possibilities. Both introduced me to a wonderful group of people who dedicated themselves to my happiness. And both will be in my life until my life is no longer – one way or another.

The Ides of September will come to mean a day of transition – when I annually reflect on my year and evaluate from where I have come, and decide to where I shall go. On September 28th, I finally move to Chicago to begin the next phase, if not the next half, of my life. The world again seems full of opportunities and possibilities. And with a new heart, and my friendship with Ex#5, I take a deep breath . . . and step the next step.

3 comments:

  1. Dop ! Par usual, an incredible blog article. Had to be the first to comment directly. Keep an "open' heart for all that may enter your life. Welcome new friendships and the next 40 years will be just as fulfilling if not more.
    Tony

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  2. Just to be sure you know, NO, you do not live beneath me. :)

    Don't think of it as The Ides of September. Beware the Ides of September! Nah... let's leave that to March.

    Embrace change, my dear. I am with Tony - most definitely, keep an "open heart" for all that may come your way. The best is yet to come.

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  3. ...............................One more comment to to add on the subject of keeping an 'open heart.' Remember that people may not always enter your daily life in the most orthodox or normal way of life as you might perceive it. Take a moment to step back and ask yourself, 'why has this person come before me, regardless of first impressions, sight seen or unseen. If you don't pause and reflect you might be losing out on an experience/person that will enrich your life. Guess I have my own selfish reasons for putting this last comment segment in, Dop. Trying at this end.
    ......Tony

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