Friday, April 07, 2006

The Big 40

Tomorrow, I finally do it. I turn 40 years old on Saturday.

My joke for the last year or so has been "I've been a daddy since I was 22, this will just make it official". Truth is, I have always been an older man stuck in my 20's and 30's, just waiting for my time to shine. And now - ceremoniously - that time has come.

My 20's was a decade spent figuring out who I was as a person. My 30's were all about where I fit into the gay world. And now my 40's are here; a time when I get to see who and what finally fits into MY world, the world I created. I am not the man I was at 30, or even 35. Far too much has happened for things to stay status quo. And it's all very exciting.

To those who say 40 is the new 30, I say stop trying to make yourself feel young. I worked my ass off to get to this age, and I've got the battle scars to prove it. I am going to wallow in it like a pig in mud. I would not want to be 30 again for anything. I didn't like myself so much at 30. But at 40, I feel like I am just starting to be the man I have waited to be all my life.

So stay tuned ... there's alot more fun ahead.